Over the years, I have come to love just about everything that I have been called to do as a Daughter of St. Paul: working in our Pauline Book and Media Centers, accompanying our young women in formation, going out to meet people in their parishes and reaching out to the “little people of God” in schools with our Pauline editions, helping in our infirmary with our older sisters. Sometimes I tell Jesus, “I want to do it all!” But I am increasingly convinced that no thing that I do has any value unless it is Jesus doing it in me.
I remember one day, several years ago, our now deceased Sr. Concetta, a woman of great wisdom, was sitting on the porch of our convent on a lovely spring afternoon. I had just been about many varied apostolic activities and I was sharing with her about all that I was doing, perhaps showing off a little about my many endeavors. And then I asked her, “And what have you been doing today, Sr Concetta?” Her response has stuck with me forever. “Dearest,” she said, “I have been loving the Lord.” That is the secret of the Pauline life: living in the Lord and living of the Lord’s love on a continual basis, taking on his way of seeing the world, contemplating his way of doing the Father’s will, making my own his way of responding to the people and events that make up my day. The more Jesus fills and penetrates every fiber of my being, the more it will be Jesus who I communicate through any activity I carry out in my life and mission as a Daughter of St. Paul. Mother Thecla, our co-foundress once said, “I become love so that God can speak through my life.”
How much I long to become Jesus so I can give Jesus to a world that is dying to know Him.
Sr. Carmen Christi Pompei, FSP